Canned Thoughts

Have you ever felt so worthless? There are times when I feel that everything that I'm doing is wrong. It feels like that the direction of my life is leading to somewhere I'm not suppose to go to. It feels like every step I take, there's a pit to take me down. There are also times when I'm just staring into nothing, doing nothing, and thinking nothing. Am I being depressed on my own world? A world where I am the author at the same time the character. I am writing my own story and I'm leading it into dullness, loneliness, and sorrowfulness. Yep, I am the writer of my own world. I am the ones who decide. I am directing my own story. If I feel sad today, that's my choice. If I get tired of nothing, that's what I want. If I am down today, I can always get up because I can choose to stood, face forward, step, and move on. I might fail everyday, I might suffer everyday, and everything that happened to me before might happen again. It will feel that my story is

I'm not perfect. I made mistakes and will surely make one again. I'm always trying to hide my sadness behind my smile. I never felt alone, but always think that I am. I have a lot of dreams to catch, but not strong enough to reach. I have lots of friends, but I never show my weak side to them. I think a lot of nonsense and I am enjoying it. I always wan't to finish what I started, but I always got tired fast. I talk a lot and loves to leave anyone hanging with my thoughts. I love to play with my own emotions. I will lie for what I think is right. I always want everyone around me to be happy. I never spent too much for myself. I care a lot for others. I will sacrifice my own for the person I love. I always want to be someone I'm not for the sake of everyone. I still have a lot to say, but thoughts are scuffling in my brain. All I want is to be understand. All I want is to be accepted for who I am.